In the last couple of years I have been coming to a place of considering the seizures to be part of some greater lesson.

Taking all the meds, tracking triggers, fighting the stress etc. is all happening, I'm not getting Chritian Scientist about it or anything, but when all the measures have been taken, and they still come, what else can I do?

My seizures are temporal lobe, they trigger panick and fear when the daytime ones happen that I don't lose consciousness in. I want to scream, grab at people, ask for help, anything to stop what feels like my sould being sucked out through my eyeballs into an abyss of timeless disembodiment. I've learned that this approach is not helpful but detrimental, so I keep my terror to myself, knowing it will pass.

Different prayers and chants have sometimes helped, if I can remember then at the time -

"One One One,
Ground yourself, strip yourself down
To blind loving silence
Stay there, until you can see
You are gazing at the light
With it's own ageless eyes"
Rumi

If we are only light, if we are all one - then where I go or am taken is irrelevant right? It's like a bootcamp program of enforced disattachment to reality.

"I am not my brain,
I am not my body"

Is something I find myself saying mid seizure too, which helps. I am more than these things, brain and body, memory and flesh. I have to beleive these things or there is nothing, as my grasp on life is so thin.

Reducing the fear, finding comfort to carry me through the dark is what I need. I have found, at the bottom of the barrel, letting go of a need to be a seperate individual intellect and relaxing into the universe, whatever that may be, grants me some comfort.

If life is a classroom, I'm in the advanced class.

What is your experience with seizures and spirituality? or thoughts?